No One Likes to Talk About Their Problems...

No one really ever does like to talk about their problems, but there comes a time in your life when you break down. A time when all you can do is talk about your problems with the hope that maybe you can solve them. Let me begin by saying that I'm not an English major, nor am I a grammar Nazi. I'm an Opera Major. I will make my living through my singing, not with my ability to spell every word correctly and write perfectly formed and phrased sentences. I hate writing in fact. The only reason I'm doing it now is because I feel a need to get some things off my chest. The second thing I must address is that this blog is not meant to be public, despite the fact that it is. If I make posts for a year and not a single one gets read, I will be that much happier, as long as I read them and learn from them. And finally, I'm not writing about my problems to try and insinuate that they are more severe or important that anyone elses. There are too many people starving and dying in third world countries for me to try and say my problems are actually that severe. No one's problems are, but we all think they are. Everybody reacts to different problems in different ways. Some people tend to freak the fuck out over something small and insignificant while others can go for years ignoring monstrous problems that stare them straight in the eyes. It's all to do with our up-bringing, and how we've been taught to deal with them. As far as I am concerned, I tend to belittle my problems. I often think that I can handle anything so I rarely ask for help and try to take care of things on my own. I tend to slack off a lot and not think things are as serious as they really are. I handle serious situations with an appropriate amount of seriousness and maturity, however, when it comes to serious issues or problems, I tend to say, "oh it's not that bad," or "that's not that big of a deal", when in fact it's a very big deal that I just don't want to have to deal with.
I'm very lazy. I run 3 miles a day and have weighed 160 pounds since I came to college 2 years ago and I consider myself a healthy person. However, I'm very lazy. I tend to take the easiest way out possible and do the minimum amount of work necessary to get something done. This only applies to my academics tho. This never applies to my music. When it comes to my art, I never cut corners. I'm going to be the best Opera singer known to man so when it concerns my vocal technique or musical pedagogy I'm very proactive.
The intent of this blog is to open my eyes to the severity of my problems so that I may realize just what kind of a slippery slope I'm on and learn from my mistakes so that I'll quit making them.
Here's to hoping it works...